Steve Update

Steve called me a few days ago. He has been sick with some stomach flu or something. He was throwing up for days and hadnt eaten for a couple of days. So he was on an iv for fluids. He says hes doing much better now though, but hes still not up to his usual self. Hopefully the bug will go away soon. I wish i could take care of him like i always do when hes sick. Mostly that just consists of watching movies with him and makin him take medications lol. He sounded alright though. Its hard without him and i am finnaly starting to realize the impact it really is having on me. So tomorrow i am going to make an appointment for the doctors to get on some anti-depressents. Hopfully that will help me sleep at night and not sleep all day. I dont know how i am going to make it through the next 234 days. I wish time would just go by faster. Its hard without Steve here. He is my life and i miss being able to spend time with him and tell him stories about my day. He is the rock in my life. Me and him and been through a lot over the years. Without him in my life, i dont know how i would have gotten through Brians death. Just knowing that Steve was there for me was enough to keep me strong. He is truly my soulmate and i have no doubt about that. I am happy that he is my husband. He has made me so happy over the past five year. I pray for him everyday and hope he is safe. I can not wait untill he comes home...then i will really be happy again.

Internship

So yesterday was my first day at my internship. It was an awful day for me. I literally did nothing all day and my supervisor did not guide me at all. In fact i hardly saw her. So today i decided that i was going to take matters in my own hand. I went around and asked anyone for anything to do. I ended up making phone calls, going to court hearings and babysitting three little munchkins. I was busy all day and I had so much fun. I cant what to see what tomorrow will bring.

News one Steve: Steve is doing really well for the most part. He has alot of down time which doesnt help. Hes going overseas on the 17th. He misses everyone very much and can not wait to come back home. I pray that he stays safe and that time will fly by. This military stuff gets old quick. I just want him back home. I have good days and bad days... and lately its been more bad than good. I only hope that it will get better.

Alone Again

Its been a while since i wrote on here. Steve came home and tried to surprise me. He told me he was being released for leave on the 23rd of dec when really it was the 22nd. His mom and grandmother went to get him and bring him back. I knew about the surprise but i didnt tell him until he was home. Anyways, my time with him was awesome and amazing. We spent ever second together. It was amazing. Last friday i had to bring him back to NJ. It was a really hard day for me. I really wish that he did not have to go back. Its been really hard. Theres a famil day on saturday but Steve doesnt want anyone to come up because its too hard and i understand completely. I just pray that the next nine months go by fast because the last three were really hard on me. I talk to him everyday and he is doing very well. He misses everyone very much and cant wait to get home.

School starts up on monday...and then my internship starts on tuesday. I am so excited and nervous. I wish Steve was here to help me with everything and just to be here for support. Oh and really good news.... Shannon is having her baby any day now so i am so excited!! Well i just wanted to get everyone up to date

Semester is OVER

So today i took my last final in my undergrad.... next semester is my internship. If feels great to finnaly be done with the semester. I worked my butt off to get great grades and now i have just one semester left till graduation. Time really is flying by which makes me happy cuz soon steve will be home. I just hope my time with him wont fly by but i am afraid it will. Hopefully the nine months after will be even fasted so that all this will be over. It feels so wierd that i am graduating in May. I did aweful in highschool but i really am proud of my grades. I have to say i def. earned them. The holidays are near and my stress level is pretty much gone now. I am just really happy today.

Becci and Rylee

I am home waiting for Becci ( My best friend) and Rylee (her baby) to get here. They are coming to stay a night or two with me which is so awesome. I havn't seen them since Rylee was born which was almost three months ago. I am so excited to see how big she is now. She was 10 pounds and 9.5 ounces when she was born lol. I talked to Steve today too. He is doing great and we are both so excited for him to come home. Its about 15 to 17 days till he comes home. So a little over two weeks. We are not sure of the date yet but its either Dec. 22ed, 23rd or 24th. Either way he is home for 10 days and i cant wait. I miss him like crazy. I even havealmost all of the christmas shopping done. I need to start my christmas cards however. Well i am going to go call Becci adn see how far she is.

So impatcient

So its like 19 days until Steve gets to come home and i am totally excited. Its crazy how the time is going by faster now. I have one more class on Friday and then next week is finals!!! I am so ready for a break from school and to be able to spend time with Steve. This weekend is going to be very busy. I work Friday nit and then i am going straight to my parents from work. Then Saturday were all going over to Brittany's to hang out with family that i haven't seen is a real long time so i am pretty excited. And then my best friend Becci and her baby Rylee are coming to visit me from Sunday night till Tuesday morning so i am def. going to have an awesome weekend. The days are really flying by and before I know it Steve will be here. Maybe I will finally get to bed for once before 2am. Its hard to fall asleep when im in this apt all alone. I tried taking over the counter sleeping pills but they didnt work so as soon as i get a day off i am going to make an appointment to get some actual sleeping pills that work. I think that will help me to function better each day. I am always so tired and worn out.

Ready for Tuesday

So i can not wait until Tuesday!! I will have mostly all of my schoolwork done by then. I have one class from 12:30 to 1:45 and then I'm off to my sister Brittany's house to spend a few nights. I am really excited to be able to spend some time with my nephews. They are so adorable and i don't get to see them enough. It will be a great few days. Plus Thursday is Thanksgiving (if you didn't already know haha) and my family will be at Brittay's too. Even my cousin, her husband and their little ones. It will be a blast. I am so excited because i need to be able to just go have some family time and get away from Ship. Then after next weekend is over I will only have a week left of classes and then finals which is awesome!! Once finals are done i will be up to only waiting 11 more days for Steve. So i just hope it goes by fast so he can come home....YAY!! Alright well i have to go get ready for work.