Steve Update

Steve called me a few days ago. He has been sick with some stomach flu or something. He was throwing up for days and hadnt eaten for a couple of days. So he was on an iv for fluids. He says hes doing much better now though, but hes still not up to his usual self. Hopefully the bug will go away soon. I wish i could take care of him like i always do when hes sick. Mostly that just consists of watching movies with him and makin him take medications lol. He sounded alright though. Its hard without him and i am finnaly starting to realize the impact it really is having on me. So tomorrow i am going to make an appointment for the doctors to get on some anti-depressents. Hopfully that will help me sleep at night and not sleep all day. I dont know how i am going to make it through the next 234 days. I wish time would just go by faster. Its hard without Steve here. He is my life and i miss being able to spend time with him and tell him stories about my day. He is the rock in my life. Me and him and been through a lot over the years. Without him in my life, i dont know how i would have gotten through Brians death. Just knowing that Steve was there for me was enough to keep me strong. He is truly my soulmate and i have no doubt about that. I am happy that he is my husband. He has made me so happy over the past five year. I pray for him everyday and hope he is safe. I can not wait untill he comes home...then i will really be happy again.

Internship

So yesterday was my first day at my internship. It was an awful day for me. I literally did nothing all day and my supervisor did not guide me at all. In fact i hardly saw her. So today i decided that i was going to take matters in my own hand. I went around and asked anyone for anything to do. I ended up making phone calls, going to court hearings and babysitting three little munchkins. I was busy all day and I had so much fun. I cant what to see what tomorrow will bring.

News one Steve: Steve is doing really well for the most part. He has alot of down time which doesnt help. Hes going overseas on the 17th. He misses everyone very much and can not wait to come back home. I pray that he stays safe and that time will fly by. This military stuff gets old quick. I just want him back home. I have good days and bad days... and lately its been more bad than good. I only hope that it will get better.

Alone Again

Its been a while since i wrote on here. Steve came home and tried to surprise me. He told me he was being released for leave on the 23rd of dec when really it was the 22nd. His mom and grandmother went to get him and bring him back. I knew about the surprise but i didnt tell him until he was home. Anyways, my time with him was awesome and amazing. We spent ever second together. It was amazing. Last friday i had to bring him back to NJ. It was a really hard day for me. I really wish that he did not have to go back. Its been really hard. Theres a famil day on saturday but Steve doesnt want anyone to come up because its too hard and i understand completely. I just pray that the next nine months go by fast because the last three were really hard on me. I talk to him everyday and he is doing very well. He misses everyone very much and cant wait to get home.

School starts up on monday...and then my internship starts on tuesday. I am so excited and nervous. I wish Steve was here to help me with everything and just to be here for support. Oh and really good news.... Shannon is having her baby any day now so i am so excited!! Well i just wanted to get everyone up to date