Steve Update

Steve called me a few days ago. He has been sick with some stomach flu or something. He was throwing up for days and hadnt eaten for a couple of days. So he was on an iv for fluids. He says hes doing much better now though, but hes still not up to his usual self. Hopefully the bug will go away soon. I wish i could take care of him like i always do when hes sick. Mostly that just consists of watching movies with him and makin him take medications lol. He sounded alright though. Its hard without him and i am finnaly starting to realize the impact it really is having on me. So tomorrow i am going to make an appointment for the doctors to get on some anti-depressents. Hopfully that will help me sleep at night and not sleep all day. I dont know how i am going to make it through the next 234 days. I wish time would just go by faster. Its hard without Steve here. He is my life and i miss being able to spend time with him and tell him stories about my day. He is the rock in my life. Me and him and been through a lot over the years. Without him in my life, i dont know how i would have gotten through Brians death. Just knowing that Steve was there for me was enough to keep me strong. He is truly my soulmate and i have no doubt about that. I am happy that he is my husband. He has made me so happy over the past five year. I pray for him everyday and hope he is safe. I can not wait untill he comes home...then i will really be happy again.