New Job

My new job is going very well so far. Yesterday I had orientation all day and today was my first day in the office, so I got my desk and my cell phone and tomorrow I should be getting my laptop. Today was pretty boring though. I spent a lot of down time surfing the web and talking with other employees, but once my 6 week training starts in two weeks it will get busier for me and then after my training I will get my own caseload and really start work. Everyone at the office is very nice and very welcoming. I really love my job, even though its quite boring right now.

Steve is doing well with his job as well. He still hasn't found out what his raise will be and when he will start to get it, so hes hoping to hear from his boss about that soon.

Other then that there's not much news

Life is AMAZING

So I know it has been a long time since I have been on here...I have been super busy with family things and job hunting. Things are finally starting to slow down though.
My quick update to whats new:
1) I got a job today!!! The one I want and I start in 2 weeks. Finally after 4 months of job hunting I get one that I love. The job is in Washington D.C and I will be working with foster care.
2) Steve has his one year review at work on wed. so were hoping he gets a raise...he does so much more work then anyone else in his office and he deserves it!! And to add to his work update, his company got a new contract for 5 years so he has a secure job for at least 5 years which is awesome!
3) Jessica is very prego and baby Ciera Jade will be arriving in a few weeks, which is super exciting. I can not wait to see her!!

I am feeling very blessed right now. With a new job, a loving husband, a wonderful family, great friends and a new niece on the way. Life is amazing!

Update

Life is pretty crazy right now...I am only home in VA on the weekend (except this week for spring break). I live at my parents in Hanover, Pa during the week days for school and my internship. Classes are getting rough and I have so much school work to do. I am lucky I don't have to work because I have so much going on with school. But I am finished in two more months which will be amazing!! Steve is doing well with his job and seems to really like it. I am very proud of him and all of his accomplishments. He is a hard worker and has been so supportive of me with school. I am in the process of looking for a job, but it is not looking good right now for me...still early I guess?? We now have two new additions to our home...a bearded dragon and a green tree python.

They are fun to have and watch. Other than that there is not much new.

Finally the end of the semester!!!

Finally the end of my semester has come. Last night was the last class for the semester...unfortunately it was also my birthday... oh well!! I am back in VA with Steve and I am loving it. It feels great to be home and to not have to go anywhere for a while. This week is busy as well as next but that's the holidays for you. So today we have doctor apts to get some motions sickness stuff for the cruise. Friday were going to go to the Washington Temple with the family to look at lights. And Saturday were going to Steves grandmothers for church and dinner. I can not believe how fast time is going and that christmas is around the corner. I can not wait because I get to see my little nephews who I havent seen in a while. They are finally coming home. Unfortunitly Zane and Elise wont be here but i will get to see them in the summer so that is a plus. Anyways, life is going great and I am almost done school which is awesome!! I am really looking foward to the holidays with family and before I know it me and Steve will off on our cruise!

The Holidays

I just love the holidays. It is wonderful to be around family and have a break from school work. This week I have no internship and no classes. I am loving every second of my free time. I still have some minor school stuff to do but nothing crazy! Steve loves that I have free time too cause now I can hangout with him. For thanksgiving were going to spend it with Steve's family this year and next year we will be at my parents. Then, like always, Christmas eve is with my side of the family and Christmas day is with his side. To top everything off... Brittany, Mike and the Boys are coming home soon so I get to see them finally after several months and man do I miss them!! Other than that things are going pretty well.

Steves New Car

Ok so Steve took some pics of his Mustang....here they are

Update on New Apt

Ok so were all moved into our new apartment in Sterling, Va. It is wonderful here and I love it however I am only here on the weekends right now due to school. I spend the weekdays in Hanover at my parents and in-laws while i go to school and my internship. So heres some pictures of my new car and the new apartment. I dont have any pictures of Steves mustang yet but I will add some later.
Heres the Bedroom




Heres the kitchen


The Diningroom (I put the chairs and table together myself)



The Livingroom


The bathroom
And my car



Hope you all enjoy the pics!!

A new change

So life is getting more exciting. Steve and I are officially moving to Sterling, Virginia on Halloween!! We are very excited to be moving. The new apt is smaller but way nicer. I have been packing a ton over the past few weeks. Right now we are staying in Hanover with Steve's parents and my parents. Our heat at our apt is broken and it is way to cold to stay there. Were hoping the heat gets turned on soon but who knows what will happen. Steve got a new car, seeing that his was dying. He got his dream car... a mustang and is thrilled to have it. Things are really going well for us. The move is so exciting. I am so ready to get out of PA. The commute to school will suck but its only till April and even then I have a month off in between for Christmas break. School is going well and my grades are pretty good!! So that makes me happy. I am almost 2/3rds done with school and its so exciting. I am not working anymore. Since Steve is making a good salary, he wants me to focus on school and not work until school is over. Its a great help to have more free-time and I am less stressed. I don't know how i could of worked and commuted to school and my internship. It seems too much to handle. We are pretty blessed right now and life is going real wonderful.

Crazy Life

Things are getting really crazy right now. Steve is home which has been such a blessing. I missed him so much but its all over now and I have him forever. We have been spending lots of time together. I took off work for a few weeks but this weekend I am going back to work. Steve got a job in VA so we will be moving shortly in a few months. Not sure where and when exactly yet but I will give you all the information when I figure it out. Unfortunately I am still in school until May so I will have to quit my job and commute. I can stay at my parents during the weekdays for classes adn my internship and then go home on the weekends. It wil suck but it wont be for long. This semester is over Dec 18 and classes dont start up again till Jan 18. Then I graduate May7th. It will totally be worth it in the end. Steve is way excited for the new job and we are both ready to start a new chapter in our life together. Living in Shippensburg, pa is getting very old and boring haha. Once I am done school then I will go back to working/ starting my career which is awesome. I am so tired of school. I cant wait until i have a life again. It will be so nice to see my Hubby on a regular basis where we dont have to take off work to see each other. On top of that, we are going to finally go on our honeymoon cruise in Jan for a week so we are very excited to get away on a vacation. It is very much needed and we will def. need it by Jan. Well thats it for now. I will try to keep everyone posted on whats new!!

It has been a long time since i posted. Life has been busy which is good for me. Grad school has been pretty busy. I have three classes done from summer classes and now my new semester has begun. The best part about life right now is that Steve finally got in the states on sat and should be home in a few days. I am def. way excited that i have trouble sleeping. Well i am gonna get going I just wanted to inform everyone as to whats going on.

I thought I would leave a quick post letting everyone know how things are going. Only 117 days until steve gets to come home and I am so excited. I just booked a cruise for me and him to go on in January and we are excited to get away. School is going good but it keeps me very busy. Its so strange to be almost done for good. A few days ago I got in a Bike accident but it wasnt bad. I just have four nasty bruises and they will eventually go away. It was really embarassing but istill got back on the bike to bring it home. Needless to say I was done riding for the day. But i will get back on shortly again. I need to practice some more with my riding. Jessica graduates in a few weeks which is exciting for her and scary for me. I feel like i am getting so old now. haha. It will be fun to see family though and to watch her graduate. She will be going to the local community college, where i went for two and half years. It will be a good start for her and i think she will really enjoy herself. Other then that my life is pretty boring. I am just working and going to school which is very busy for me.

Ok so it has really been a long time since i wrote on here. Things have been pretty busy for me. I finally graduated this past saturday and i start grad school in a week from monday. I am pretty excited. Graduation was awesome however it was hard not having Steve there. He was pretty bummed that he couldnt be there. My parents, Brittany mike and the boys, Becci Rylee and her boyfriend, chad, jessica, Steves parents and sisters all came up for the event so i had a pretty big crowd. The weather was perfect and it was just awesome. Only like 130 more days until Steve gets to come home. I can not wait. I miss him so so much. I have been working alot more since school ended but once it starts back up i wont be working as much again. Only one more year and i am done for good. Well i am going to bed but i will try to keep up with the blog more haha

Update

Things are going pretty good here I guess. Time is starting to fly by alot faster and i have about four more weeks after tomorrow left for my internship. It will be nice once i can get a break. The meds still are not helping, in fact my sleep patterns have been worse for the past few days. I feel so tired all the time and i have no energy. I dont think the meds are gonna work for me but i have to give them atleast andother week to see. Even the sleeping pills dont work. Steve seems to be doing better. I get to talk to him alot more now which is helpful. And it makes my day just to hear his voice....even if its only for a few minutes. My life is pretty crazy... i have been working about 65 hour weeks and its wearing down on me so i am going to start working less hours so that i can rest up. Other then that there really is no other news.

Grad School

So It has been a while since i wrote on here. A few things have happened. First and most exciting....I got into Grad School and not just grad school but the advanced staning grad school which means only one year left and im done!!! I am totally excited. Steve sent me beautiful flowers to congratulate me and that was pretty sweet. Last week was spring break week so i got to spend a lot of time with Brittany, Mike and the two adorable boys. It was alot of fun!! I went to the doctors finally and im now on meds that will hopefully help me with everything. It will take like 4 to 6 weeks to kick in tho. Steve is doing alright but i worry about him all the time. Hes not sleeping good and he just seems distant at times. Its now down to 193 days till he comes home and i can not wait at all. I feel like im so busy all the time that i cant sit down to just breath. And at night im so tired but no matter what i do i cant fall asleep. I have sleeping pills but i can only take them if i have 8 hours to sleep so they will only help sometimes. Well i think im gonna go try to sleep again.

Terrified

Ok so I found out today that a soldier in Steve's brigade was killed the other day. He was shot off base. The man was only 32 years old and left a wife and three children. These men have only been there for a month and one has already been killed. I am terrified that something will happen to Steve. I pray each day that I dont have 2 men in uniform at my door to give me bad news. I dont know what im going to do if something happens to him. He is my life. Hes not doing too well at all. He's not sleeping well and he has bad dreams. This mans death has us both freaked out. His deployment is almost half way done and I just want it to be over so bad. I want him home so bad. I miss him and I need him. Why cant everything just be over and this war be over. I hate this whole thing. I am so scared and I dont know what to do.

Friday Nite

Ok so friday night i am sitting at home doing school work and its about 9pm. Theres two apts under me that are loud with partys so im trying to ignore them so i can get some work done. well all of the sudden i hear two guys yelling at each other screaming. the one guy was yelling that he was gona kill the other one so the other guy said to him "slit my throat". Needless to say i called my dad cuz i was scared. And finally decided to pack my bags and go to my parents where i would be safe. I called my landlord and he failed to call me back. So the next two nights were hard for me to fall asleep. I was scared for my life. I talked to the landlord today about it tho. He had already spoken with the tenant. I guess what happened is the tennants friend showed up drunk and he wouldnt let him in so his friend was knocking on the other two doors down stairs with his pants down. Apt. b just ignored him but loked through his peep hole to see what was going on. Then in apt c. the girl answered and the guy then told her he should rape her. so the tenant in apt b came out and fliped out on the guy and finnaly the new tenant in apt a came out too and told his friend to leave. It was loud and crazy and scarey. Im probably confused everyone with this post. Needless to say my landlord said hes going to kick the guy out so it will be peaceful again and i wont be scared once that happens. Unfortunitly hes still there for tonight and for however much longer so i have to still deal with it all. I hate being alone. It seams like i never have enough stress cuz i keep getting more and more and more. I feel like i am going to freak out or something. Im getting emotional all the time and sooner or later i am going to have a melt down. I have no idea what to do. I have no time for anything... not even to go see a doctor. I work 6 days a week and have class on the seventh day and in between all of that i have so much school work its crazy. I am tired all the time, im sick with allergies, my eyes have been bloodshot for days. I really am losing it. And its not a good time to lose it. Ben is leaving on the 25th for his mission and thats more stress. So i guess im totally going crazy with this post now. Sorry, i am just writing out my fustrations. When will i get a break though? When is it my turn to breath? When can i take care of myself? I spend 6 days a week doing things for other people. But i have NO time to take care of myself. Man i really need a vacation?? Only like 3 months till graduation then i can breath... if i make it to three months before i freakout.

25 random facts about myself

1. I married my high school sweetheart and my soul mate
2. I have the greatest family anyone could ask for and nothing could change that
3. I feel like i really dont have any friends
4. My life has always been full of depression... I just hide it well
5. I am mad at God for taking my Brother from me
6. I hate the way i look and which i could change a lot of physical things about me
7. I am not patient
8. I love to clean when i am stressed out...it helps relax me
9. I did aweful in highschool, but now in college i am doing very well... its the one thing i am proud of
10. I am afraid of being alone
11. I am afraid of clowns...dont know why i just am
12. My mom is my hero
13. My husband is in Iraq and I miss him so much
14. I have wonderful nephews and nieces
15. I can not wait to have a child of my own
16. I hate school and i can not wait to graduate from the masters program
17. I love to golf... i just started learning
18. I miss photography... i used to love taking photos
19. I feel like every time things start to go right....something bad happens
20. I wish i would get more motivated to exercise
21. I am going to miss my brother Ben when he goes on his mission
22. I love spring and summer
23. Pink is my favorite color
24. I feel like everything is falling apart
25. I fear that one day Im gonna have 2 soldiers at my door giving me the worst news of my life

Steve Update

Steve called me a few days ago. He has been sick with some stomach flu or something. He was throwing up for days and hadnt eaten for a couple of days. So he was on an iv for fluids. He says hes doing much better now though, but hes still not up to his usual self. Hopefully the bug will go away soon. I wish i could take care of him like i always do when hes sick. Mostly that just consists of watching movies with him and makin him take medications lol. He sounded alright though. Its hard without him and i am finnaly starting to realize the impact it really is having on me. So tomorrow i am going to make an appointment for the doctors to get on some anti-depressents. Hopfully that will help me sleep at night and not sleep all day. I dont know how i am going to make it through the next 234 days. I wish time would just go by faster. Its hard without Steve here. He is my life and i miss being able to spend time with him and tell him stories about my day. He is the rock in my life. Me and him and been through a lot over the years. Without him in my life, i dont know how i would have gotten through Brians death. Just knowing that Steve was there for me was enough to keep me strong. He is truly my soulmate and i have no doubt about that. I am happy that he is my husband. He has made me so happy over the past five year. I pray for him everyday and hope he is safe. I can not wait untill he comes home...then i will really be happy again.

Internship

So yesterday was my first day at my internship. It was an awful day for me. I literally did nothing all day and my supervisor did not guide me at all. In fact i hardly saw her. So today i decided that i was going to take matters in my own hand. I went around and asked anyone for anything to do. I ended up making phone calls, going to court hearings and babysitting three little munchkins. I was busy all day and I had so much fun. I cant what to see what tomorrow will bring.

News one Steve: Steve is doing really well for the most part. He has alot of down time which doesnt help. Hes going overseas on the 17th. He misses everyone very much and can not wait to come back home. I pray that he stays safe and that time will fly by. This military stuff gets old quick. I just want him back home. I have good days and bad days... and lately its been more bad than good. I only hope that it will get better.

Alone Again

Its been a while since i wrote on here. Steve came home and tried to surprise me. He told me he was being released for leave on the 23rd of dec when really it was the 22nd. His mom and grandmother went to get him and bring him back. I knew about the surprise but i didnt tell him until he was home. Anyways, my time with him was awesome and amazing. We spent ever second together. It was amazing. Last friday i had to bring him back to NJ. It was a really hard day for me. I really wish that he did not have to go back. Its been really hard. Theres a famil day on saturday but Steve doesnt want anyone to come up because its too hard and i understand completely. I just pray that the next nine months go by fast because the last three were really hard on me. I talk to him everyday and he is doing very well. He misses everyone very much and cant wait to get home.

School starts up on monday...and then my internship starts on tuesday. I am so excited and nervous. I wish Steve was here to help me with everything and just to be here for support. Oh and really good news.... Shannon is having her baby any day now so i am so excited!! Well i just wanted to get everyone up to date